Kink but not the fun, sexy kind.

First kink in my summer fun-on.  The guy who I thought would throw a lot of business my way wants to hire me full time.  The salary is $25,000 less per year than I was making not including the perks I'd lose like writing off my car expenses.  He wants me bad enough not to be real keen on giving my business a boost by sending work my way, he didn't say that of course, I know it intuitively.   I'm flattered that he believes in my work enough to hire me, but I am very disappointed in both the salary offer and the fact he won't be sending work my way.  It's the first real time since I've started this venture I feel gloomy.

My old boss did offer me work but only if I agreed to give him 25% of all my own work.  He felt that because he was giving me a job I owed him a piece of my company.  I said no in the nicest way possible and said I'd be happy to contract with him and he turned me down.  This means no money coming in for my business at all.  Not how I pictured it was going to happen.

I have a great deal of faith in myself, I know I'd do a killer job and I'd save my clients money, but getting the client base is harder than I anticipated, especially with the monkey wrench of a job offer in the way.  Argggghhhh..

It's raining outside which suits my mood.

On the plus side I heard from my wonderful man today, he told me that I'm his sun.  I think that's one of the loveliest things that's ever been said to me.  Life's not bad after all.