Mattering

I've entered the dating market right after the break-up, but lately my mind is preoccupied with thoughts of us and how it abruptly ended.  My overly analytical mind is trying to comes to terms with it and I'm thinking of writing him.  Rather than send him my email, I'll post it here and hope to goodness it takes the impulse. 


Hey there,


Been debating sending this email.


It was such a sudden end to things I guess I’m trying to figure it out.

I want to know if I’m missed is I guess the heart of it.

Seeking reassurance seems so weak, but don’t we all want to have mattered?

Mattering to someone is what drives relationships in the first place.

I felt we attempted mattering and something screwed up.

I want to know I matter. Not just to you. But to the world in general I suppose.

Wish I could figure this out on my own…