Typical Roissy Female

I am in a relationship with who I perceive to be an upper beta, lower alpha male. He's desirable by women, makes a good living but has some provider beta qualities which is why I don't place him in the super alpha category. Some days I figure he's into me, other days not so much. He can be distant. This frustrates me. Yet...his aloofness makes the times he gives me his attention so much more meaningful. God, I hate that I'm like that. I'm a typical Roissy female. Yuck.